Today's blog is going to stray a bit from the general topic of gastric bypass because as I am preparing myself for surgery I believe I have neglected to help my best friend, my husband prepare for his surgery. Now Geoff, is tall and slim so no need for gastric bypass for him but he has extreme difficulty with his hands. He has had his right hand operated on for carpal tunnel and trigger finger about 4 years ago and now is having his left hand operated on for carpal tunnel. I have spent so much time focusing on how I feel about my surgery that I disregarded his feelings about his surgery on Thursday. Geoff, is my husband but not only my husband he is my best friend. Geoff listens to all my thoughts...whether I am mad and venting, or ponder a major decision or just gabbing. He is my sounding board for my wild wacky and sometimes darn good ideas. He has always supported any decision I have made and back me up through good and bad times and we have had some doozies. Twice in our relationship I have watched my husband walk away from major accidents that he should never have made it through. I thoughts that must have ran through his mind at that time would have been horrible because they thoughts that ran through my mind were absolutely horrifying. I have nearly lost my best friend twice and it took weeks to stop having nightmares about the accidents. I have never been that scared. Today I realized that my husband is scared. He doesn't particularily like hospitals let alone surgery, he is concerned about his surgery due to a past experience in his last surgery where his blood pressure and heart rate sky rocketed and caused some complications and I think his biggest fear is that his hand will not work properly. Right now he cannot even hold a glass without his hand becoming numb and dropping it. He is only allowed to use the kids plastic cups cause I am running out of glasses. The sad part of this is I have been so busy with my preparation I haven't stopped to listen to Geoff. My deepest apologies to my best friend. I am so sorry that I put my self and my feelings infront of you. I understand your concerns and I will be with you the entire way. When you close your eyes be at peace honey, know that you are in many peoples thoughts and prayers and all will be well. Dr Matthew is a fabulous surgeon that specializes in hands. Remember that you heal fast and seem to do so well in the recovery process. Think positive Geoff. Just think 15 days after your surgery I will join you in the recovery process and we can work at being healthy together or we can just mope together. I will be there for you there is nothing to worry about. Our dear friend "A" had a great status today that read "worrying is like a rocking chair, It gives you something to do but gets you no where." Van Wilder. I love you!
Steph
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