30 Days, One Month, 720 hours, 43200 seconds.....and time keeps ticking. Am I still excited......for sure! Am I nervous yet.....not really. I am more concerned about the other aspects of life being wrapped up before the surgery. All those little lose ended that need to be handled before I don't have the time or energy to take care of afterwards. I think the time seems to being going by so fast that I seem to be running out of time....funny how time is ......sometimes it seems to speed and sometimes it feels like the clock never changes. Have you ever driven somewhere and it seems to take forever to get there but the return trip home seems to happen much faster.....time doesn't change but maybe it's how we view it that does. I guess time doesn't need to be something that causes anxiety or fear, but it is something we should treasure as we cannot regain it but within it lies our most cherished memories. My daughter (enter player - 15 yr old Paige) who is in grade 10 often tells me that something is new (like a singer...Bon Jovi) or something she is doing in school I wouldn't know as I have been out of school so long. Well, she is right it has been 19 years since I graduated from then, grade 13......but it seems just like yesterday some days. 19 years, wow the things I have done in 19 years.....I could write a book!! Did I ever think in High School that those 19 years would encompass so much......never. Did I ever think that I would be 150 lbs over weight?.....NEVER! Could I change things in general, maybe....but then I wouldn't be who I am today. Could I have changed things with my weight.....I am honestly not sure. It's not like I haven't tried so many things to lose, maintain and control a normal level of weight. Let's see....weight watchers at least 4 different times, Jenny Craig, Beverley Hills, South Beach, dietician, Dr. Bernsteins, Curves, gyms, cabbage soup diet.....and I am sure there is more I have forgotten. Reality is I have spent most of my life on one diet or another. Why? To be accepted! To be normal! The definition of the word Normal according to thefreedictionary.com is 1. Conforming with, adhering to, or constituting a norm, standard, pattern, level, or type; typical: normal room temperature; one's normal weight; normal diplomatic relations. We have so many different charts and guide lines to follow when it comes to one's normal weight: your doctor, the national BMI chart, and every different diet group has different ways of creating a "normal" weight. Over the many years I have been told my weight should be anywhere between 145 lbs and 185 lbs. I have decided that for me I would be delighted if I was between 185lb and 210lbs. Now again this is my decision not any chart, any doctor it's all me. To risk sounding repeatitive my weight goal isn't centred around what I look like but more what I feel like...health wise. Weight loss is sometimes like time, sometimes it happens so fast and other times it happens dreadfully slow and each time you try it is slower. Unlike time, you definitely can regain weight the challenge is to maintain the weight loss so like time and cherishing memories you must treasure what you have done and continue to move forward with time making each new day, hour, minute a challenge. There are two fabulous quotes I would like to leave you with today. One is “Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work.”
- Thomas A Edison. My work is cut out for me and the journey will be tough, but so worth while. The second quote is "The bad news is time flies. The good news is you're the pilot." - Michael Althsuler. I have always been the pilot I just strayed from the course, now the course is plotted and with God as my navigator I will make it!
Steph
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