Day Six - My Metal just got Splashed! Disappointment to a noble soul is what cold water is to burning metal; it strengthens, tempers, intensifies, but never destroys it - Eliza Tabor. Went to my doctor today and was soaring so high about how well things have gone and my weight lose so far. She did the one week check up and then I jumped on the scale. I gotta say I nearly cried...it said that I was up 8 lbs since I came home from the hospital. How is this possible....I have no caloric intake.....broth is like 5 calories and sugar free jello is zero calories and diluted apple juice is maybe 30 calories at most! How can I gain weight? I was so upset! Talk about deflating your sails. Both the doctor and the receptionist said that the scale probably isn't calebrated the same as the scale I weighed out on at the hospital, but still I was really disappointed. I mean it is only a minor set back but it hit me like a ton of bricks. I thought about not writing my blog today or even just not talking about my check up. I guess hiding it isn't worth it since I have been so honest and upfront but part of me just doesn't want to hear those doubters going see I told you she would fail. Robert Kivosaki said that the size of your success is measured by the strength of your desire; the size of your dream; and how you handle disappointment along the way. So now that I have admitted that I was definitely rattled and a little deflated I will tell you that I am not destroyed! This will just make me work harder towards my goal. When you dream something for so very long and it finally happens it is a little surreal. My dream is my reality and my reality is I just had gastric bypass surgery 6 days ago and I am doing fabulously so I had a little set back. Next week will be better! One day at a time, one week at a time, one road block at a time. "Dreams are renewable. No matter what age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born." (Dale E.Turner) I used to think that things in my life would never come to pass; loving someone again...it did; getting married again....it did; going back to college....it did; having gastric bypass surgery ....it did! I am excited that I have had the opportunity to experience this transition in my life. I am thrilled that as I sit and type at my computer daily to write these blogs that I learn something new about myself everyday. Getting to know myself again and how I really am has been a wonderful experience and continues to be a great learning curve daily. Some people think that I am crazy writing a blog and exposing myself and my personal emotions, feeling and well just personal life in general to the public. Www.dictionary.reference.com indicates crazy used as a noun is unpredictable, nonconforming person, oddball. To those who think I am crazy then "thanks". The last thing I ever want to do is be predictable. I would much rather be random and unusual. My personality just doesn't fit that of a conforming one! Ask any true friend of mine.......I am random and definitely not predictable. Friends that have known my since childhood like Miss "E" would tell you that I beat to my own drum....that generally has a full piece band backing it up. I am good with this. I will continue to be open and honest and relay my feelings whether they are happy, sad; elated or disappointed with all the readers as I think that there are people that will related and empathsize with me. Those same people will know that I am with them and that I understand them and together we can push on to achieve the goals we have set for ourselves. "Only as high as I can reach can I grow; only as far as I seek can I go; Only as deep as I look can I see; Only as much as I dream can I be." Karen Ravn. My challenge to everyone today is reach, seek, look deep and dream! For you can only grow, go, see and be!

 Disappointment to a noble soul is what cold water is to burning metal; it strengthens, tempers, intensifies, but never destroys it - Eliza Tabor.  Went to my doctor today and was soaring so high about how well things have gone and my weight lose so far.  She did the one week check up and then I jumped on the scale.  I gotta say I nearly cried...it said that I was up 8 lbs since I came home from the hospital.  How is this possible....I have no caloric intake.....broth is like 5 calories and sugar free jello is zero calories and diluted apple juice is maybe 30 calories at most!  How can I gain weight?  I was so upset!  Talk about deflating your sails.  Both the doctor and the receptionist said that the scale probably isn't calebrated the same as the scale I weighed out on at the hospital, but still I was really disappointed.  I mean it is only a minor set back but it hit me like a ton of bricks.  I thought about not writing my blog today or even just not talking about my check up.  I guess hiding it isn't worth it since I have been so honest and upfront but part of me just doesn't want to hear those doubters going see I told you she would fail.  Robert Kivosaki said that the size of your success is measured by the strength of your desire; the size of your dream; and how you handle disappointment along the way.  So now that I have admitted that I was definitely rattled and a little deflated I will tell you that I am not destroyed!  This will just make me work harder towards my goal.  When you dream something for so very long and it finally happens it is a little surreal.  My dream is my reality and my reality is I just had gastric bypass surgery 6 days ago and I am doing fabulously so I had a little set back.  Next week will be better! One day at a time, one week at a time, one road block at a time.  "Dreams are renewable.  No matter what age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born." (Dale E.Turner)  I used to think that things in my life would never come to pass; loving someone again...it did; getting married again....it did; going back to college....it did; having gastric bypass surgery ....it did!  I am excited that I have had the opportunity to experience this transition in my life.  I am thrilled that as I sit and type at my computer daily to write these blogs that I learn something new about myself everyday. Getting to know myself again and how I really am has been a wonderful experience and continues to be a great learning curve daily.  Some people think that I am crazy writing a blog and exposing myself and my personal emotions, feeling and well just personal life in general to the public.  Www.dictionary.reference.com indicates crazy used as a noun is unpredictable, nonconforming person, oddball.  To those who think I am crazy then "thanks".  The last thing I ever want to do is be predictable.  I would much rather be random and unusual.  My personality just doesn't fit that of a conforming one!  Ask any true friend of mine.......I am random and definitely not predictable.  Friends that have known my since childhood like Miss "E" would tell you that I beat to my own drum....that generally has a full piece band backing it up.  I am good with this.  I will continue to be open and honest and relay my feelings whether they are happy, sad; elated or disappointed with all the readers as I think that there are people that will related and empathsize with me.  Those same people will know that I am with them and that I understand them and together we can push on to achieve the goals we have set for ourselves.  "Only as high as I can reach can I grow; only as far as I seek can I go; Only as deep as I look can I see; Only as much as I dream can I be." Karen Ravn.  My challenge to everyone today is reach, seek, look deep and dream!  For you can only grow, go, see and be!
Steph