The part of Jack & the Beanstalk that I want to point out is Jack really wanted to climb that beanstalk. He wanted to see what was at the top so bad, explore a new world. I to want to explore a new world, but my goal is not to climb to the top; my goal is to go in the opposite direction, reverse as some might say. At the top of my staircase is my highest amount I have ever weighed......I have spent alot of time at the top of this staircase but made a decision to begin my decline. I don't know if Jack stopped on each different branch he used to climb that beanstalk but I have stopped to view the scenary on ever step down. I learn something new, something exciting with each new step. Today I stepped on the scale again ( I made a rule for myself that I can only get on the scale once a week). I have not been weighed for 14 days. The scale I have could not weigh me the first few times as it has a maximum weight amount and I was still above it. Today the scale told me that I am down 20 lbs since my last weight in. I really hope the scale doesn't lie, but I have tried it at 3 different times today and am only off by a lb either way. That makes for a total lose of 81 lbs since Christmas and 70 lbs since April 1 2011. I realize that I still have a fair amount of weight reduce but I am confident that I will continue with my staircase decline. I assume that the weight reduction will slow down somewhat in it's rapid decline. I have changed about 4 1/2 sizes so far in pants, but the funniest is I am going to have to buy new shoes as my shoes are all to big. Next week when I go back to work it is once again casual dress wear and I will need to dig out some of my dresser smaller clothing. I have a sense of pride when I see what I have accomplished and the clothing that I can fit back into, but part of my feels a little helpless or maybe hanging in limbo is a better way to put it. Like the childrens rhyme "round and round she goes; where she stops no one knows." I have events throughout the summer and early fall that I am attending and I cannot fathom what in the world I will wear. It's a little troubling but once I have a better gist the weight reduction and if or when it slows down I will be able to do some planning. It's about not being prepared for me I guess. Strange, because I am so happy to watch the weight dropping off it's just a weird state of being, mind and body. I had lunch (soup-split pea and ham in which I took out all the ham pieces I cannot eat) with my dad today, the waitress couldn't figure out why I only ate a little bit of the soup and asked to take the rest with me. I explained I just had GBS and that my amounts are small. She said that she didn't think that anyone could survive on those amounts and that I probably wasn't getting my vitamins and nutrients that I need. I am doing exactly what the bariatric clinic has instructed me to do, measuring everything, weighing everything following the rules to the T. I know that at the 2 month post op mark I have to begin to take a prenatal vitamin as they have the most needed vitamin and minerals. My blood work is set up for every 3 months so they can monitor my levels closely in case there is an iron deficiency or other low levels. I still am not feeling hungry or starving as I have been asked. I am just figuring out how I am going to work my meal plan into my work schedule. I have prepackaged and measured soups and meals, I have to try toast and peanut butter for breakfast....lol my 1/4 piece with 1 tbsp of peanut butter. I can have egg salad and melba toast too. I have 8 days till I can eat solid food. This is a step that I will stop and enjoy on the decent of my weight decline staircase. Jack got to the top of his beanstalk and saw what he wanted, I will get to the bottom of my staircase but I will not go back up the way Jack went back down.
Steph
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