Day Thirty One - My Give A Damn Is Broken!

 I am not a easily depressed person nor do I get ruffled too easily, but I gotta say I am having a difficult time with the friggin weather in Ontario right now.  May 2-4(Victoria Day - stat holiday for my friends to the South) on the way rotten cold rainy ridiculous weather.  Last Friday it was 28 degrees celcius or 82.4 F for all my American friends.  Today is 6 C or 42.8 F.  I am freezing as it is and the darn weather is not helping me.  I am itching to get outside but it just keeps raining.  The dampening of the earth is dampening my mood!  With my mood being in the ....toilet for lack of a better word it seems to spill over into all the aspects of my life including my weight reduction journey.  Today I just don't seem to care about how much I have lost or what damn size I am at! I've tried to focus on my planning for meals but even that I can't get into....that's bad for me cause if anything gonna make me focus and be happy it's food!  I am definitely grumpy.  Snappy with the hubby, but sometimes he deserves it cause he just does dumb stuff that irritates me.....for example.  I pulled in the driveway today, looked to the end at my gate that was open, with the lock and key in the lock hanging on the cross bar for the lock.  Who does the crap?  It made me so mad!  I know it might not seem like alot to you guys but it really was to me.  Then lets chat about the brillant things people say....."oh Steph, you look good..how much have you lost" I replied and the next statement was "Oh, you were always covered up before I didn't realize you were that big"!  I laughed and laughed cause at that very moment if I didn't I was pretty sure my mouth was going to shift into action mode and the language and/or comments that would flow forth could probably jeopardize my job.  I smiled and walked casually away thinking some very interesting thoughts....wannna hint: involved was a female dog, a large sow, a chainsaw and a huge pile of cow dung and an unbelievable urge to hurl something(one) into it and laugh some more!  But again now as I sit here and write this I just done care who says what or does what anymore.  I guess I need to get going and make some supper for my hubby or at least get something for myself.  I need to finish some projects I am working on and they just don't seem important or worth my effort right now either.  Am I having a bad day....totally.  Will this continue .....I hope not!  Do I care right now.....I think so but then again maybe not!  Someone say something that will cheer me up....cause I think my give a damn is broken!
Steph