Day Thirty - Gone to the Dogs!

The saying "Gone To The Dogs" is an idiomthat refers to if something has gone to the dogs, it has gone badly wrong and lost all the good things it had according to www.useingenglish.com.  Now I guess it's all in how you view the situation.  The way I am viewing it is ...it has truly gone to the dogs.....all of it....food that is.  Today being my Day 30 post op I have made lunches, dinners, baked cookies and yes made food for the dogs.  I had borrowed a dog food cookbook from a coworker and my one dog needs to gain a little weight so I photocopied so recipes for the dogs.  Now the kicker is all of the recipes could be consumed by humans and in fact most of the recipes would have the dogs eating far better than I.  One of the recipes calls for potatoes, rice, fillets of salmon, dill, and a creamy sauce.....sounds like a damn gourment dinner and one that I am absolutely not sharing with my dog.  Don't get me wrong I love animals and I love my dogs but when they start having better dinners than me....I gotta draw a line.  While I was doing so grocery shopping today I picked up some chicken hearts and gizzards ( I don't feel that bad then cause I would never ever eat those things even though I know some people do) and made them a dinner.  It was the meat, potatoes, carrots, gravy and oatmeal.  I had carrots and potatoes that had to be used up anyways but it was funny smelling something that smelled great but I knew was for the dogs.  Dishing up the food for them was even funnier.  I totally was laughing out loud ....my family thought I was crazy and maybe so....but the dogs eat more than I do and with so gravies and sauce and lots of carbs.  Am I the saddest person in the world to be envious of a dog?  It's ok I know I am....that's why I was laughing.  I sat down to think  about what I was going to write for todays blog and watched my muskoka chair blow off my front porch.  I made a comment about the weather being crappy and the whole weekend "gone to the dogs"!  It hit me as if the muskoka chair had hit me.....the blog title needed to be "gone to the dogs".  Now I am serious about the weather having "gone to the dogs" but as for the food I am just joking.  I won't be sharing my salmon fillets with my dogs but I will allow them to share my fruits & vegetables.  I am quite happy with my food that I am eating now and even with the little amounts as I am satisfied and often too full to complete the amounts.  Today I was able to have my poached egg that I have been looking forward too.  I am soon going to eat my chicken bacon, low fat cheese quesadilla for lunch.  I really loved the chicken bacon too.  All was good with a little salsa on the side.  So even though today things have "gone to the dogs" all is not lost and I am still in good spirits.  Just strolling along the path of my journey through my new life.
Steph