Day Sixteen - Standing Against The Wind

Standing against the wind was the title of the sermon that my brother preached this morning.  It really made me think about how the struggles that we are faced with are like the wind!  The wind pushes against us, trying to force us to go in a direction we don't want to go in.  The wind rips up things, scatters and makes messes, puts things in disaray.  The wind is like a wall, a wall that we must push back against and break through.  Sometimes the wind is so strong it can move a grown man, sometimes it is so strong it moves buildings, cars,equipment and trees.  How can we stand against the wind?  We run into struggles everyday in life, but especially as overweight people or GBS recipients.  We all run into a wind storm or two here and there.  We need to look at ourselves and stand strong, push against the wind....it's hard, and it pushes us, fight...fight against it.  The wind can blow so hard it feels like it is peeling the skin off our bodies and faces or it takes our breath away, but we carry on and push through and survive.  We are strong people and there is a plan for each and everyone of us in the life we live.  I keep pushing, I am not sure what my plan is or who I might help, but I am determined to succeed in this new life.  My journey may lead me many different places and I might have a variety of different struggles but I am sure that somehow someway I will help someone....even just one person and I have been successful in not just helping myself but helping someone else.  I am only 10 days away from being able to eat some solid foods and that is making me very happy.  Today as I stared at my busy summer calendar I realized that I have several stag n does to attend and a few weddings also.  At first I was disappointed but then I thought how silly of me to be disappointed.  I will be able to eat a small amount and I will just avoid the foods I cannot eat.  I should be excited about going to these venues, a new me, a small package .....they begin in June.  I cannot wait to see how much weight I have lost be then.  I am very excited about the wedding we are going to in September.  Hopefully I am down enough to get a new outfit and looking fabulous.  I know that sounds so self centered or vain but for so many years I have heard "oh, you look so nice" but then there is the comment you hear later "she is pretty too bad she is so fat".  For the first time ever it would be so nice to go to an event that you are complimented for looking nice without the underlying comments.  I am not disappointed anymore I am excited .....fought the wind again and pushed through.  Remember to keep pushing through and fight the wind....we can all do it.
Steph